I know I tear most of the time at night, I know I make people worry. I know that I could have avoided it. I know that I could maintain. I know that I can take every step to make it not happen. I know that I could be the change. I know that I should stop expecting so that I could feel better. I know that I don't know what I know when I'm not thinking of the things that I know. So forgive me if in any case, I'm not behaving the way that I usually was.