& Every now and then, I don't feel like working, not when I don't feel any closer to my dream career, but I guess I just have to shut up accept the fact that I have no other choice now.

I just need to hang on, till life gets better (yeaps, even when Idk when it will become better)

I only know that now, things as usual and I have to get back up on feet and carry on with this life of mine.

Though I'm still meeting him after that :D

he's sleeping soundly now, and hope he'll feel better when he wakes up.

Hees, found this cute picture of my baby in my phone :D SO CUTE! & I feel like pinching his cheek now! Hahaahaaas, he'll laugh when he see this picture of his gay looking hair.

Awwwws, BABY ILOVEYOU! ♥

I guess my days ahead will be easier to get through cause I had a great boyf and a bunch of few good friends! ILOVETHEM ALL.

Anyway, though it's holiday, but no, it ain't a time for me to waste my time off, shall say hi to money and work, here I come!

Guess after this holiday, I'll better have a great time ahead!

Other than that, CPF thingy, yeaps, I'll settle that by next week!

ILOVEMYBOYF. Sorry to make you sad and worry when I'm down. I need you there and you know I'll be just fine. Iloveyou baby. ♥

When I'm young, I had a dream of being a doctor as a future career. At least I know I have to study and work hard to make it come true.

When I'm older, I know that my future career and whatever I'll be doing must be related to my interest. Well, least I'm still working on it.

Now? Working for my study. Weren't I supposed to go step by step? I don't know what to do now except for getting tired and feeling lethargic. Everything is biting me off bits by bits.

I know I have friends, family, especially my boyf who will help me fix my scar.

But no, not really working, when family is already a major problem for me at the moment.

& every now and then, the thought of losing my boyf have been haunting me. I'm not a low confident person, but I just love him too much I guess, when just a hug from him can stop me from crying, stop me from feeling anxious, stop me from thinking so much and calm me down in whatever things.

Yet recently, whenever I feel down or when my world is falling apart, sometimes all I get from him is so not the reaction that I expected or he once has on me. Or maybe its just me thinking too much, if not I'm too much a weight for him to handle.

I tell myself to stop showing the child temper, but he's the only one I could still show it to. You can't expect me to show it to someone whom I just know or friends who knows me lesser than he does, or even family who already left me hanging.

Please tell me what to do.

& I swear I hated the annoyed face boyf gave me when he have no idea what I want.

Most of the time, I just need assurance from him, a hug or a kiss or some assuring words, to let me know that I have him with me. & not asking for anything else.

Cause I've become so dependent on him that, if he gonna leave my life any moment now, I'll collapse. & whenever I think of that happening, I'll tear.

Not that I have no trust in this relationship, not that I don't love him, not that idk he love me too.

But there have been others out there who was so in love, but things still doesn't work out for them. I really wish that we'll be together till the end.

Recently is not a good day for me, I seems to irritate boyf often, which is not a very good thing. I'm sorry baby. ILOVEYOU&IREALLYDO.

Its not because I chose not to say anything out, but mostly because my expectation had been higher I guess.

I think all I have to do now is to stop being so dependent and get back on feet.

Be happy, like my boyf wanted me to. Ilovehim, so much.

Maybe I was used to changing class, and most probably it is because the class wasn't really bonded.

Miss the class? Not much. I'll just miss the few who cheered me up when I am sad and those who was always with me not only when they needed my help.

Hehehheees. & I swear I'll really miss Marzie! :(

Last day of school and the whole class gonna write just one story ^^V

Bye. I shall be off now.