It's weird, Idk how to describe the feeling I'm having now.
My heart kindof attack me every now and then, Idk how it did but it cause a pain that physical pain could never distract it.
Can't sleep, no appetite, no mood & always have the verge of crying out.
There should be a path to guide me now. Idk what to do, how?
I am truthful all along in what I want to say and do, and nothing that great impact had failed me before. Though it is still true that I've said lies before and did bad before. I thought there is always chances? To err is human, to forgive is divine? No?
Its only till these few days, that I feel like breaking down, when nothing I do seems to be of expectation. Expectation from people, school, from my family, work, or even myself.
Sometimes, I just can't understand whats with the expectation and why people expect so much from me?
I'm strong, yes, after going through so much in my past and becoming of what I am today. Why does all bad things occur on me? Not trying to imply how pitiful I am here, or giving the definition of bad. I know some people out there might have greater misfortune than me, but still, for my case, I've had enough, gone through enough and suffered enough. Isn't it my turn to have good times now? No? Then please tell me what to do, guide me, show me the path that I should walk for I am not sure where I am going now. & it hurts so much that I want to cry my heart out every time.
Nothing stands in our way.
You do know how important you are to me, Iloveyou.
Promise to don't ever leave me.
You know you'll never find anyone as stubborn as yours truly.
